Well I finally turned 30.. it's been a long forever mostly been hurt... Not really a happy person.. have a lot of interests.. thinking of becoming a gun owner just so people don't fuck around when around me.. mostly sick of it.. not in love although I do love more than I should. I can cook, pretty masterful at it without having to go on with somebody else as long as I'm giving the time and energy it takes to do what I'm doing. Can make clothes design architecture.. master of the fixed gear bike, I did the math at least 43000 hrs. I love reading, cuddling, playing video games, having sex, laughing, making drinks, holding hands, eating snacks in bed, driven across the country without stopping for anything but gas and two Starbucks drinks. Hated my life while doing so and was basically sad about my body just feeling so wrong and woke up to stars every morning when all I wanted was to be left alone.. lived in Portland and wished I had got to see the nature of the US experienced two national parks as a employee without getting to go rock climbing or hiking.. spent many nights in bars in new york jus standing with a drink in my hand while everybody had fun. Had "friends" that threw lavish parties and owned venues and companies.. "friends" who knew designers and all the right people.. "friends" who were millionaires.. Nothing really shocks me. I'm not rich. Don't really have a hunger like I did for anything. I'm passionate about a lot of shit... I like taking polaroids and making a mess in the place I live just to clean it up after the weekend.. Id like to build my own furniture one day.. get an old camera like in rent and make a movie of what I see in a year. Into star wars, lord of the rings, and Harry Potter. I love painting and pottery/sculpture/metalwork I have my bridge pierced. And mostly hate everybody for anything they do that they might think I want or even for a fleeting moment say I want when I don't. I lookdon't like getting my hair cut and love doing everything for myself. Basically I've gotten the point of make money and that's it. I don't really want anything else. If you've read that far and you might still be interested. Know I'm not perfect, i feel sad a lot, I'm slow And take my time as much as I can to try and do things right... When I'm happy it feels fleeting and I'd rather spend a week in bed with somebody than leave on a plane to anywhere... I don't like large masses I lived in NYC saw 2000 people on a street block somedays.. I love working. Love nature, hate bugs, cool with reptiles and amphibians. Love dogs, cats are cool. Playing video games is the shit. Watching movies is fun. Prefer an at home theater experience over the movies or a phone screen. Don't really care for drugs, drink a little. No judgement, or criticism. Into lite bdsm, toys, and anal sex.. costumes are hot, roleplay is fun.