I am not looking for a relationship. I may be looking for someone with which I can have a relationship. I can tell you that your average first date fakeness is completely not my style. I want reality. I want honesty. In fact, the best/worst relationship I ever had was very strong in the honesty department. Very strong. Trust is imperative and fragile, and once lost, it takes effort, tons and tons of effort, to get it and to give it again. “I can still return to you, the haven of my lonely pride, but I am sworn to murder those illusions that blossomed from desire with desperate beauty: and there shall be no falsehood in our failure. Since, if we loved like beasts, the thing is done, and I’ll not hide it, though our heaven be hell."