Looking for a Great Connection

Hey there. I've had this thing up for a while and I've met a lot of great guys to chat with. But I haven't written anything out in this space since I got my profile, so it's time for me to so you can get to know about me. I've been single for a while and it's had it's ups and downs. So at the time I posted this profile I was feeling a bit whoreish which contributed to all the naked pics. I guess I could take them down but they're fun to look at, huh? Well at least I hope someone out there enjoys them.....I'm not a total slut, just some of the time, depends on how hot u are and how much I've had to drink, not necessarily in that order :) J/K....well.....maybe. Guess that's for u to find out, huh? So I believe it's time to represent myself as I am feeling now in my life. I am really working on who I am and what I'm looking for. I am a deeply passionate and artistic person who is quite over analytical about things a lot. I call myself a right-brained thinker....I deal in concepts, ideals but not like a traditional right-brained individual I analyze them like a left-brained person. I have a lot of contradictory duality like that. I sum it up by saying I'm passionately cerebral. I've decided to take a new direction with my life and finally get a career, or take the steps in that direction. I'm going to be attending The Culinary Institute of America in a few months in St. Helena, CA. I can't WAIT for a change of weather, I get so FED UP of the gray and rain here. Being October I'm already dreading the next 8 mo of dreariness. Yeah I have Seasonal Affective Disorder (S.A.D.) Do just fantastic with the sunshine, but when it goes away things aren't pretty haha. So that's another big reason why I want to get out of the NW. However, cooking is another BIG passion of mine. I am in a band now. The artist is Jade Jericho, check out her myspace music page. I'll be playing keys and singing backup, I'm SOOOOOOOO excited. She's VERY talented. I feel honored to be asked to work with her. Just really FUN QueerCentric music. It's going to be a blast! So, I tend to be a pretty easy goin' laid back kinda guy on the outside, pretty quiet for the most part, so I'm really sharing a lot here......but I guess it's true that still waters run deep. I have a great relationship with my friends. I have fantastic friends and I love them dearly. I have to warn any potential relationship material out there that it's kinda a packaged deal sometimes, my friends are basically family to me and when u get me you're going to get them too. I also have an amazing relationship with my family, I couldn't ask for a better one, really, unless I was like Donna Reeds kid or something lol. But that was just TV. If I could grow up on a 50's sitcom I think it would have to be The Munsters. Life was never dull in that household! I was brought up in a very loving home my folks have been together for 30 years. My only sibling, my brother, got married 4 years a go and I don't see any bumps in their relationship it's still going as strong as the day he proposed to her. I mean nobody's perfect, we had our hard times, just like any family but it was how we made it through them that made the difference. Due to my father's former profession we had a very deep ethical code and ideals to our upbringing which I still live by today. It pretty much boils down to having optimism in the world, believing in the good of humankind, giving back when u can, what goes around comes around, and living each day as honestly and true to yourself as possible. And always having something for yourself to dream and believe in to strive to be a better person. I also have a veracious curiosity about the world around me. I love constantly experiencing new things, new music, new art, new cuisines, new ways to make love ) .....more things to analyze, YAY! LOL.......so if u want to know more about my interests, my likes/dislikes about music/art/tv/etc. and some of what I find funny in the world check out my homepage:.. That give a little bit better idea of my interests, I've gone on long enough about myself here......and........whew!!!! If you have made it this far, pat yourself on the back!!! I usually am not this wordy but I just had a lot to say today. And please anything u want to know about me just ask, I am a very open, fun person who loves being social, good conversations, witty repartee, intelligent blokes to have some fun with. As far as what I'm looking for......They make u choose on here, Love, Sex, or Chat......well I am pretty open to all at this point. As far as what I look for in men. I like guys around my age or younger 18-30ish. I want someone who can hold their own in conversations. Who can contribute their ideals and challenge me about the world and open my eyes to new ways of looking at things. I also want someone who is equally open to that, but will not loose themselves in assimilating to each other. I tend to look for people who have a love for art and beauty in the world. I want a little class, romance, desire, and seduction, is that too much to ask? You also have to like Disney to some degree, lol, or you just won't fit in with my family. Yes we are all fanatics about the Disney theme parks, we spend a lot of vacations with that bastard mouse!! LOL I mean my brother and sister in law live about 20 mins from Disney World, what does that tell you? Physically I like younger, boyish sort of I guess, lol, looking guys. Not usually into guys taller than me, I like to be able to wrap myself around them and hold them tight, so I like them to be smaller framed than me. Stocky is ok though. I tend to prefer smooth guys but that's not set in stone.....and ethnic guys REALLY drive me wild!!!! Ok I guess that's probably more than enough for now.....so if you want a smart, intelligent, guy with a wickedly wry sense of humor on this grand adventure we call life then let's chat, baby!!!! I hope I haven't scared u off by this point......Thank you, from the bottom of my heart for reading. Oh yeah also on my myspace page is my playlist of my 200 essential songs I can't live without haha......I recently became enamored with Ben Folds.....BRILLIANT!!!!! I'm obsessed now. I like music that really touches my soul that really gets into me an shakes me up, makes me think about life and find the joy and passion in the world. An artist hasn't done that for me in a very long time. Yeah I know he's been around for QUITE a while...I play piano and my friend showed me the cover on youtube of "Such Great Heights" and I was like that is F***ING BRILLIANT!!! So I HAD to check out his other stuff.....Immediately hooked! My new favorite song is Philosophy: "Wont you look up at the skyline At the mortar block and glass And check out the reflections In my eyes You see they always Used to be there Even when this all was grass And I sang and danced About a high-rise You were laughing at My helmet hat Laughing at my torch Chorus Go ahead you can Laugh all you want I got my philosophy Keeps my feet on the ground And I trust it like the ground And that's why my philosophy(my phil-) It keeps me walking when Im falling down(o-so-phy) I see that there is evil And I know that there is good And the in betweens I never understood Wont you look at me I'm crazy But I get the job done Yeah I'm crazy But I get the job done Chorus I pushed you cause I loved you guys I didn't realize You weren't having fun I dragged you up the stairs And I told you to fly You were flapping your arms You started to cry You were too high Too high You may take this all for granted Take the mortar, block and glass And you forget the speech That moved the stone Its really not the you cant see The forest for the trees You've never been out In the woods before Go ahead you can laugh All you want But I got my philosophy Keeps my feet on the ground And I love you You're my friend But you got no philosophy Now its time for this song to end" I listen to the song 5 times a day at least....I get obsessive that way sometimes. And if you have similar tastes in music that's really going to help....my last two bf's did not and that was always a sore spot (but they liked manure for music, I'm sure there are a LOT more intelligent people out there, one would hope)....but I'm an open individual. If I wasn't open to new music I wouldn't have discovered Ben Folds.....I am just so TIRED of all the mainstream CRAP out there. It's so OVER produced and prepackaged and force fed to the masses it makes me want to vomit!! I guess that's what I'm looking for in music and a guy...someone who is real and has a soul and wants to feel connected and is in touch with the deeper meaning of being on this earth, and feels the deep joy and passion for living, and wants to find ways to express that and share that. I do have a darker side as well (I suppose you'd have to if you enjoyed musicals about Serial Killers, Presidential Assassins, and South American Dictators), perhaps a dose of reality, but it's a song that will always be one of my motto's in life.......and a fee blow job if you can figure out the artiest! "Everybody knows that the dice are loaded Everybody rolls with their fingers crossed Everybody knows that the war is over Everybody knows the good guys lost Everybody knows the fight was fixed The poor stay poor, the rich get rich That's how it goes Everybody knows Everybody knows that the boat is leaking Everybody knows that the captain lied Everybody got this broken feeling Like their father or their dog just died Everybody talking to their pockets Everybody wants a box of chocolates And a long stem rose Everybody knows Everybody knows that you love me baby Everybody knows that you really do Everybody knows that you've been faithful Ah give or take a night or two Everybody knows you've been discreet But there were so many people you just had to meet Without your clothes And everybody knows Everybody knows, everybody knows That's how it goes Everybody knows Everybody knows, everybody knows That's how it goes Everybody knows And everybody knows that it's now or never Everybody knows that it's me or you And everybody knows that you live forever Ah when you've done a line or two Everybody knows the deal is rotten Old Black Joe's still pickin' cotton For your ribbons and bows And everybody knows And everybody knows that the Plague is coming Everybody knows that it's moving fast Everybody knows that the naked man and woman Are just a shining artifact of the past Everybody knows the scene is dead But there's gonna be a meter on your bed That will disclose What everybody knows And everybody knows that you're in trouble Everybody knows what you've been through From the bloody cross on top of Calvary To the beach of Malibu Everybody knows it's coming apart Take one last look at this Sacred Heart Before it blows And everybody knows Everybody knows, everybody knows That's how it goes Everybody knows Oh everybody knows, everybody knows That's how it goes Everybody knows Everybody knows"