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Things I like: - Reading - gay fiction, science fiction, boring tech stuff :) - XBox 360 - BioShock! Mass Effect! Halo 3! - Cooking - when I don't have to :) - Wine making - My bf (please note that i have one), who I share my life with - Kind people interested in other kind people hazel huddled close and crouched on the ground fearing what quietly approaches rising slowly to test the scorched earth callused feet over coal-fired terrain hazel eyes a minute finding another's to rest the ground cools a little while a smile dancing in place nervously then tripping tender pale fingers flinch and recoil the fumes still rise from the ground hard to see but still through the soot one appears far off, entrancing, no cares captivating, running, looking back sudden burning hands clench chest-ward holding there to run through cloudy fumes sprinting, lifting heavy feet off the ground watching wide eyed as he lifts off, looks down skyward, incandescent reflections on your face a last effort, springing up to meet him feet heavy, heart burning, but the spirit floats away and you fall on your knees, hurt, angry, defeated -Jon Vegas Waiting in the ticket line See all the boys walk by Thinkin about the light show Wonder why I know you're kind See you turn your light on Know that there's something wrong See you through the doorway Looking back and all through me All through me Take the ticket from your hand Hoping for a brush of skin Listen to you gently But it's all text and see Looking at the cell phone Knowing I should just go home But then i wait for you online Till you start to run and hide I guess i've got a chance now Can't believe you made me cry Got the ticket in my hand Run my thumb across the edge Across your thin scarred wrists Think about you all the time But, it's only words and time Even those three fade out Vegas lights bright to gray Turn the ticket over Run my nail across the stripe Shiney bands twist back Curling 'round back towards me Guess I've lost the lottery You're crazy about this other guy But it's really how it has to be And you know i know you're kind I know your kind Painted heights soar around Know i should be happy found And I've been found -Jon


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41 from GLENSIDE, PA, USA
Now looking for:	ask me	Build:	average
Currently:	in a committed relationship	Eyes:	brown
Height:	5ft. 11 in.	Ethnicity:	White
Hair:	brown	HIV:	negative
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"Although I do think there might be something. Yes, I think I feel it sometimes when I'm out walking the dogs. Just myself and them. Especially if we're in a wide open space. At that moment it seems to me that there is no longer any hierarchy of being, that we're all just creatures inhabiting the earth, our soul visible in our eyes. I suppose if I had to say there was something divine, something godlike, it would be what is between my dogs and myself when we go for a walk in the fields" -- Joseph Olshan, The Conversion

Gay Fiction

First Person Plural

by Andrew W.M. Beierle
I ordered this book with low expectations because i feared the cojoined twin premise was too much of a reach, but this book just entranced me with characters so real and a depth of emotion so honest that by the end of the book I felt I knew these people and loved them. Yes, the cojoined twin premise is a vehicle for all of this, and if you examine that too closely I tihnk it doesn't reflect reality, but that's not what the book is about. All at the same time, mixed together, you have in Porter and Ownen's relationship both a fulfillment of community, brotherly love and compassion that I feel many gay men crave, and at the same time the conflict that sexuality introduces into that, and a mirror for the "internalized homophobia" that many gay men feel splits themselves into two people. From another angle, Owen and Porter reflect a bit what it's like for a mature gay relationship, where sex is still a part of it (Owen and Porter by necessity have a sexual relationship with each other), but there's all these brotherly feelings that at the same time make their bond stronger from one side, but push them apart from the other, at the same time bound to each other in the strongest way, but also finding that total intimacy and connectedness repulsive in its own way. This is a book that I both enjoyed reading, and also thought about for weeks after finishing it. After I read the last page, I felt like two new friends had just been torn away from me, which I think is the ultimate invasiveness of an author, where he has cojoined his characters with your heart, and at a complete opposite to a cojoined twin, at the end you're left with just this void where these imaginary souls seemed to have touched your life. I don't know what more you can ask for.

Thinking Straight

by Robin Reardon
Taylor, the main character, is written with a sweet and endearing mix of naive and rebellious, and it is quick and enjoyable to read. The book only gains any depth when it concentrates on what Christian love should be, and how that should transcend any other part of being a Christian - trumping interpretations of scripture, conventional or outdated social rules, even trumping the idea of morality as a prescribed and unchanging system of human behavior. It offers up a mild sort of moral relativism, putting forward the idea that while the small number of edicts against homosexuality in the Bible were correct for the time due to the different social and cultural realities, that as the culture and societal norms change, so does what its moral. But, the book really only offers up just enough examination of moral complexity to cover inclusiveness for gay people, without really exploring what other moral implications this same relativity might have for other people and particularly what it might say about the viability of traditional Christianity in particular. Does Christ let us in on this changing and flexible nature of morality? If not, why not? It would seem to be a most important part of the religion then. The book directs us to a sort of covering mysticism that love, truly sought, would lead us naturally to uncovering how moral choices should pick and choose from scripture or convention. And I'm not saying this isn't a viable stance to take, but the book doesn't expand this theme even when it has the opportunity (for example, how does this apply to recreational drug users? are all recreational drug users addicts? is all such use immoral?). And because of that, the book (although endearing) finally becomes a bit more propaganda than literature. It walks a fine line by wanting to not offend too many of the default Christian moral assumptions, picking it's battle very carefully. And there's nothing wrong with that, except that if you examine it closely enough (and at least some teens questioning their religion along with their sexuality are capable of examining quite a bit), I think you see clearly a choiceful one-dimensionalness that's trying so hard not to offend that it looses its potential impact.

The Conversion

by Joseph Olshan
Let me start off by saying that this book is written in a more literary style, and I don�t intend that to denigrate, particularly because of the book�s self-reflective quality. At one point, the main character Russell (who is a one-time-published author) remarks on another character�s (also an author) work�s accessibility (he had feared it would be written in an overly literary style), and I wondered if the author was expressing his own concerns about the novel, right there within it, out of the mouth of the main character. Speaking of the main character, I found he treads just on the border of likability � he comes across as a defeatist in search of a happiness that he will never let himself have, buffering his ego with affairs with married men and delaying his own realization as an author by his own infatuation with the obfuscation of his own skills by his obsession with the literary world society and the gentrified world of the American seeking some sort of entry into a class they can never truly belong to by immersing themselves in European culture and language. The main character�s one relationship with another man who is truly available to him is more about his own relationship with how he perceives his own credibility, as an author, and just adds to his gloomy introspectiveness. The real relationship in the book is between the main character and an Italian woman, Marina (you guessed it, also an author although a wealthy and established one), whose villa Russell is recovering in after an unusual (and somewhat unbelievable) turn of events. Marina is actually for me the best developed and most likable character in the book, and she�s the pivot point around which Russell�s self-conception evolves. It�s really the only genuine relationship Russell has. The book is very well written, and it is accessible despite the �literary� prose, but at the end of the novel I felt that some of Russell�s �progress� was just a veneer. Maybe that was what the book was trying to accomplish, was to show that although he had changed during the experiences he was having, that in the end he can�t escape his own nature. Still, I was left feeling a little cheated at the end, as if I deserved something more revealing, something that would have left Russell as more empathetic, more a person with something to say to me, not just to himself. In the end, I don�t think Russell really sees a way to move on from his own selfishness, just a way to develop it in a different direction.

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raglev08	7/18 at 16:17 Awww! You're such a hot sweetie!! ^_^ How was your day?
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Just Me

Gay Fiction

First Person Plural

Thinking Straight

The Conversion