i need a good man....lol no such thing

self summary huh? I'm not the best looking guy but i do have a big heart it just takes time for me to show it because of fear of being hurt.i am also very mis-trusting becuz both my boifriends have cheated on me. i am looking for love, yes even at 19 i wanna find a person i can be with forever. i am a huge movie buff so if you cant stand watching lots of movies leave now ha-ha.Um I'm big on family so if you don't care much for family it wont work. um i don't care much for sex. yes it great and wonderful but that can't be the only means in a relationship. I'm a VERY controlling person it's just my nature, but for some odd reason it makes people wanna be my friend. i am very blunt and sometimes that can piss people off but i dont like to lie. i have to be spoiled (to an extent). I tend to be a very jealous person but I'm trying to fix that. my guy has to be on the more on the manly side considering I'm a spoiled little princess. Yes I'm girlie but i can be manly at times and im tryingto man it up a bit more lol. i don't dress up like a girl or anything like that i just act girly. i do dress in girlie clothes (jeans and tee's) but you'll have to get over that but im starting to dress more boy-ish. I'm a VERY Trusting person and that usually gets me and has gotten me fucked over many times. I have tried so hard to stop trusting people but my nature of trust just gives in no matter how hard i try. um want a guy who will spoil me make me feel special (for once) someone who will love me with or without my flaws. some one who isn't afraid to love and be loved in return. i need....a MAN. no more dating boys.i also need a MAN who will be there for me when i need him no matter what. I'm a Needy Greedy (in terms of my bf) spoiled brat. i need to have a guy that will pamper me and love me unconditionally and want it in return. What I'm doing with my life I'm working to go to an acting/modeling school. I've been into acting since i was in the 6th grade and followed it ever since. I currently work at the Renton IHOP as a server and will soon be transfering to the seattle ihop on broadway and madision. I live with an Awesome roommate she is helping me get my life back on track and all potential boyfriends go through her first so i don't get another psycho stalker who wont leave me alone. The first thing(s) people usually notice about me My Hair, My eyes, my Energy( I'm very energetic) and My smile. I don't know ask people. My favorite books, movies, music, and food Book-"Oh My Goth" anything by Christopher Pike. Movies-Anything that can keep my interest. Mainly Horror, Love And Disney Music-Mostly anything no death metal, its very scary. Food-I'll try anything once and if i like it ill try it again. The six things I could never do without Movies Friends Internet Money Job Clothes I spend a lot of time thinking about The steps i need to take in life to accomplish my goals and to better myself. On a typical Friday night I am either at home hanging out in my room watching movies or in my friends room hanging or out with friends. The most private thing I'm willing to admit here I tend to have the worst taste in men. But i hope wish and pray for mister right to come along some day. You should message me if your looking for a potentially serious relationship. Also if your not only looking for sex. It's not that important to me. i need a guy that is going to take care of me and spoil me but also know that i CAN take care of myself i just like to be spoiled.